A Note To Myself-
It's easy to think in too high esteem of yourself. To feel that you have finally arrived at a place of acceptance among a crowd, or believing you are a part of something that you truly aren't in the end.
To believe you are loved by someone, and you aren't.
Or to let Satan make you think that.
Sometimes, it's hard to discern between the two.
I struggle with acceptance. Always have. My heart yearns to be accepted into groups of like minded thinkers, loved by those same people. And then there is always the disappointment that comes with realizing I had allowed Satan to help me believe the lie, because my flesh so desperately seeks the acceptance of others.
But I truly only needed the acceptance of one: Jesus Christ.
So as I take up the cross that no one can ever understand, and as I struggle with not understanding where I am in this world, or trying to find the place where I am accepted, I know where I should take my burdens to- Calvary.
Because there are trials here for me to learn from. Accepting and loving those who don't accept or love me. Because I was once unlovable. Embrace that you are to love people right where they are, even when they don't love you, or embrace you in return.
Put a smile on, pull yourself up by the bootstraps and move on.
